The tiny, one-room house was dark and musty. Narrow sunbeams
poked through the cracks around a small draped window, and near
the bed a solitary wick flickered in a little bowl of oil.
Ruchelah lay in her bed. She had been infirmed for years, barely
able to move or sit up, much less stand or walk. She heard a
rapping at the door—two knocks, a pause, and then three quick
taps. It was Leah, the rebbetzin.
“Ruchelah, are you awake?” the elderly rebbetzin queried as she
showed her head through the door. The sickly woman nodded.
Leah came to see Ruchelah three times a day. She would come in,
give Ruchelah a bowl of broth, adjust the pillows, and in the winter
wrestle a log on to the hearth.
“Your healer hasn’t come yet?” Leah asked as she helped Ruchelah
sit up and gave her a bowl of chicken soup. Ruchelah just smiled
faintly.
“You’re still waiting for him?” Leah continued. Again, Ruchelah just
smiled.
“Go ahead, eat; it will give you strength,” Leah urged. She
watched as Ruchelah took a few spoonfuls of the hot nourishment.
“I’ll see you again in the morning,” Leah promised as she turned
towards the door. “Make sure you rest; rest. Don’t you stay up all
night reading.” Leah adjusted her wig and softly closed the door
behind her.
Ruchelah sighed. Leah had been taking care of her for how long?
It seemed too many years to count since the accident. A horse had
gone crazy in the market place and knocked down everything—and
everyone—in its path. Ruchelah had found herself lying flat on the
ground, a sharp pain shooting up her spine.
“Rest,” the doctor had urged her, “stay off your feet and you’ll be
better in a few weeks.” The weeks became months and the months made themselves years, but the pain had never left her. Ruchelah
developed a lump beside her spine, and not long afterwards the lump
grew and began spreading. Then she began to lose her strength.
Her husband, Leib-Duvid, had seemed a good
enough man and a fair provider, but when
he realized that his wife would be an
invalid for who-knows-how-long, he
packed his bags and left. Who
could blame him for not wanting
to bear such a tragic burden?
Dishonorable, true! But understandable.
She heard from
him again only once when a
messenger brought the get.
Ruchelah’s daughter, Shayna,
had taken care of her at first, but it
wasn’t long before she was able to
escape into marriage. She and her
new husband soon moved away. They
brought their first child to visit but now they
found it too cumbersome to do much traveling. Yet
who could blame them?
It was after this that Leah came; was it six years ago, or seven?
From the beginning Leah had always been faithful; it was “hesed shel
emet,” an act of true loving-kindness, as Ruchelah knew she would
never be able to repay the rebbetzin for her care. Leah even used to
bring Ruchelah books with stories of far-away places. But the only
one that Ruchelah cared for was the tattered old Yiddish Bible. Leah
had let her keep it. It sat on the table beside her bed, right next to the
bowl of oil.
Ruchelah, feeling a bit stronger, reached for the Bible and opened
its yellowed pages, almost automatically, to the middle of the book
of Isaiah. This was Ruchelah’s favorite passage, a slightly obscure
incident about how Hezekiah, one of the kings of the ancient Jewish
nation, had become mortally ill. He had prayed to the Lord, and the prophet Isaiah had come to him, saying, “Thus saith the Lord . . . I
have heard your prayer, I have seen your tears. I hereby add
fifteen years to your life” (Isaiah 38:5). God, Isaiah explained, was
going to work a miracle to let Hezekiah know that he would be
healed; the shadow on the sundial was going to go backwards ten
degrees. Of course, the Scriptures recorded that the shadow did
go backwards, and King Hezekiah recovered from his illness.
Ruchelah had come across this story by chance several years
ago. “If God is God,” she had reasoned, “then he can do whatever
miracles he pleases. If God could cure old King Hezekiah, why
can’t he heal me?”
“Ribbono shel Olam,” she had prayed, “Master of the Universe, I
know you are the great Healer; please, heal me as you healed
King Hezekiah.”
She had barely finished her prayer when a flood of golden
sunlight streamed through the window, making
everything as bright as a summer afternoon.
“It’s a sign,” Ruchelah had gasped, “a
sign that God has heard my prayer.
He’s going to heal me; God is going to
heal me!” And she hung onto that
hope because she had nothing else.
Not too long after she read about
Hezekiah’s miracle, Ruchelah’s eyes
had lighted on another passage, also in
the book of Isaiah. “Surely, our disease
he did bear,” the prophet had written, “and
our pains he carried . . .” Ruchelah continued
reading. She discovered that God had sent a
“righteous servant,” someone who took upon himself
the sickness and hurts of others and bore their sins. “A
healer,” she murmured. But who was this healer? Ruchelah
didn’t know, but she knew that God had sent him. And since God
had said he would send a healer back then, doubtless, he could
certainly send a healer to her now.
Ruchelah had been so overjoyed with her discoveries that she
couldn’t wait to tell Leah. At first Leah even shared her hope
and looked for a miracle. But as time went on, Ruchelah,
instead of getting better, declined. She was weakening; her
already slight frame was wasting away, and her once healthy
complexion was turning pale and gray. And the years had
continued to drag by.
Now a sudden draft blew out the wick in the oil bowl. The sun had
already set, and the room was swallowed up in darkness.
Ruchelah wanted to recite the confession of sins and say the
Sh’ma, but she found that she didn’t have the strength to
remember all the words.
“Ribbono shel Olam,” she prayed, “please forgive me my sins, and
quickly send the Righteous One, the Healer, to me.” Ruchelah
prayed and then soon fell into a deep, dreamless sleep.
She awoke to the sound of a rapping at her door—two knocks, a
pause, and three quick taps. The room of her dream was flooded
with a stream of golden sunlight, just at it had been the day she first
asked God to send the healer. When the door opened, she
thought she would go blind, the light was so bright. But instead of
Leah, a man entered the room. He was dressed in white and was
neither young nor old.
“Come, daughter,” he said, as he held out an ugly, scarred hand,
“your faith has made you well.”
Ruchelah took hold of that hand, and with a quickness that
surprised her, she leaped out of bed, jumped to her feet, sprang out
the door and started running—running and skipping for sheer joy—
through a lush, green meadow that was bursting with springtime.
Morning came. Leah entered the dingy room and shook her
head sadly at the sight of Ruchelah’s gaping jaw and wideopen
eyes that would never see anything on earth again.
“Poor thing,” Leah said out loud. “She really thought that God
would heal her. . . .”